I'm going through another one of my depressions about my appearance. Fuck. It makes it worse to watch TV or movies or read books or even listen to certain songs.
I hope the bad thoughts will go away. It's kind of amazing what social pressure can do to the mind of an intelligent, mature, independent human being. Not to mention a very goodlooking one, if one manages to abstract from current prejudice against non-underweight people and post-menopausal women. I was so surprised when I met you, I expected some serious ugliness and was met by a brilliant smile, green clever eyes, and lovely curly hair on top of a tall, solid yet very feminine frame. The only thing you can honestly complain about is that it is indeed difficult to find clothes your size, since most shops seem to cater to the underweight.
I've only seen one picture of you, but in that you looked very typical. Right in the middle of the 'looks spectrum, where I am and majority of my friends are.
I am so sorry that people have hurt you and given you such a false impression of your aesthetic appeal.
My Dollink. When you think about JS Bach, are you concerned with what he looked like? What about a favorite author? What a person looks like is probably the least important piece of information it's possible to have about him/her. Our culture is frankly nuts to make us think and feel otherwise.
Please try to remember you're a bright, talented, and lovely person, and that those concerned with appearance alone are very likely not worth your time.
*hugs* I have been there so many times I can't count. Sometimes I can't even look at myself in the mirror and like you said all over TV is about beauty and perfection.
thank you sweetie. I have very little doubt in my mind that the inventor of photoshopping cackled to himself, "now I have the power to make women feel even WORSE! MUAHAHAHAHA!!"
I so know what you are talking about! And I am really sorry you are. This weekend we were in Baltimore and I avoided the room's mirrors because it put me immediately into the worst frame of mind. And I wanted to enjoy myself(which I did). Do you know the beginning of the Cole Porter song "Night and Day?"
like the beat, beat, beat of the tom tom when the jungle shadows fall like the tick,tick, tock of the stately clock as it stands against the wall like the drip, drip drip of the rain drops when the summer showers through a voice within me keeps repeating ew, ew, ew
Night and Day I am the one With a sagging face and body And I weigh a ton And this torment won't be through Til I'm dead and my body's just a a pool of goo Day and Night, Night and Day!
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13/11/11 17:00 (UTC)(no subject)
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13/11/11 17:25 (UTC)I am so sorry that people have hurt you and given you such a false impression of your aesthetic appeal.
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13/11/11 18:06 (UTC)(no subject)
14/11/11 07:07 (UTC)Please try to remember you're a bright, talented, and lovely person, and that those concerned with appearance alone are very likely not worth your time.
Hope you feel better soon, my dear.
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14/11/11 16:13 (UTC)(no subject)
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14/11/11 16:07 (UTC)(no subject)
15/11/11 00:18 (UTC)like the beat, beat, beat of the tom tom
when the jungle shadows fall
like the tick,tick, tock of the stately clock
as it stands against the wall
like the drip, drip drip of the rain drops
when the summer showers through
a voice within me keeps repeating
ew, ew, ew
Night and Day I am the one
With a sagging face and body
And I weigh a ton
And this torment won't be through
Til I'm dead and my body's just a a pool of goo
Day and Night, Night and Day!
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15/11/11 21:29 (UTC)