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[greghousesgf]

Impunity
(House fanfic. an answer to "Wilson's heart")
Spoiler Alert! If you haven't seen 'Wilson's Heart' this fic will make no sense!

She has been told everything that happened. She runs to his room. The first words out of her mouth are, "You did everything you could," as she walks quickly to his bedside.
The expression of sorrow on his face breaks her heart as she starts to lift her right arm, wondering if he will accept her holding his hand or if he's in a bad enough state of self-loathing that he'd reject any attempt at affection and push her away.
He does neither.
He stares at the ceiling. She's not even sure he's aware of who she is. Her right arm droops. Her shoulders slump. Her shoulders normally NEVER slump.
She's completely uncertain what to do. She sort of hovers next to the bed for what is probably only a few seconds, but it feels like much longer.
Tentatively, she reaches out with her left hand and very gently strokes his face from his high, angular cheekbone to his jaw stubble. His pale blue eyes focus on her and his long fingers squeeze her right hand and the faintest ghost of a smile briefly forms on his lips.
She smoothes back a small wisp of hair and softly kisses his furrowed brow. He looks slightly puzzled.
She leans forward and whispers, "I love you" in his ear as quietly as she can. He holds her hand more firmly and she sees that brief phantom smile again for a second. She sits down in a chair next to the bed.
She gets the feeling he's not going to let go of her hand anytime soon.
He hasn't said anything.
He'll talk when he's ready.
She'll be listening.


many many thanks to akumatatsu 61 for his help in writing this and for his all-around emotional support.

Comments

[takes-a-fairy.livejournal.com]

I am inferring that "she" is Cuddy, in this story? I like this alternate ending. I think House and Cuddy make a good pair. Koolness.

[chocolate-frapp.livejournal.com]

She isn't Cuddy. Cuddy may love House but she would never tell him. I do like Cuddy and wouldn't at all mind sharing House with her (or Wilson, for that matter) House always struck me as the polyamorous type anyhow. I guess you can interpret who "she" is however you like but it was meant to be a self-insertion (albeit a rather subtle one). I'm glad you like it. I was hoping it wasn't too emo.

[takes-a-fairy.livejournal.com]

*pondering your words thoughtfully*

Not sure about the 'polyamorous' idea...will have to think about that one.
But I do agree, Cuddy would never tell him as long as she's his boss and as long as he's so angry. I think House is still stuck on Stacy, even though she's long gone. Once he cares for someone deeply it stays with him, even if he cerebrally pushes it down inside. Why else would he have helped her in a previous season with her new husband?

As for being too emo...there isn't enough of the right kind of emo going around. If there was the world would be a warmer place to live.

Check out my latest post for today. It's hilarious!

[chocolate-frapp.livejournal.com]

I hope House isn't still stuck on Stacy. I hate Stacy.

[takes-a-fairy.livejournal.com]

Well...he will always care about her, even if he moves on to someone else...but he will always have a place in his heart for her.

[arhh.livejournal.com]

I am not so sure that he is stuck on Stacy anymore. I think he managed to get her out of his system in season 2. That being said, I think she will always be special to him and he will always question his pushing of her away (both times). He is just scared to open up like that again to anyone, don't think he really wants her back in anyway after season 2 though.

[wasabi-girl1.livejournal.com]

Interesting. Am I meant to place whoever I want as "she"? There are a few possibilities...(Cuddy, Cameron, Thirteen even, etc.)

[chocolate-frapp.livejournal.com]

She can be whoever you want to be, i guess (please not 13, though!!) but she is actually a self-insertion. I was trying to be subtle about it.

[arhh.livejournal.com]

I agree, anyone but 13. I like the relationship between them as it is, but I don't sense any further chemistry between them. If I was going to have to pick a cast member for the 'she' in this, I would have to go with Cuddy.

[chocolate-frapp.livejournal.com]

i like Cuddy but I don't think she would ever actually tell House she loves him, even if she felt that way. That being said, I would not at all mind sharing House with Cuddy (or Wilson) I think House is the polyamorous type anyway.

[arhh.livejournal.com]

Great job :) I like that female in this isn't indentified, that it can be whomever the reader would like. House was really rocked by this whole thing and especially by Wilson's walking away, although after watching again, I don't see any hate, blame, or resentment on Wilson's features. Just unbearable hurt. He really looked like he wanted to say something but couldn't. Anyway, I am rambling. Good job and thanks for sharing :)

[chocolate-frapp.livejournal.com]

thank you so much. your fics are so good that I'm particularly flattered by a compliment from you. I did want to leave "her" identity to be debated (she's actually a self-insert but i wanted to be subtle about it).

[cherry-on-top.livejournal.com]

Awwwwwwwwh!
That was so sweet, but sweet in a realistic way. (I have a isses with fics where House is all mushy and not himself)
I like how which 'she' wasn't specified. But I when I read the 'i love you' my first thought was 'I hope she isn't Cameron'. hahaha.
The ending was simple and to the point. Which at 22 minutes past midnight is welcomed.

[chocolate-frapp.livejournal.com]

i am so glad you liked it. She isn't Cameron. she can be whoever you want but it's actually a self-insert, I was trying to be subtle. (Most of my House fics are self-inserts which is why I don't post very many of them.)

[deelaundry.livejournal.com]

Nice job! You painted the picture of the moment well.

[chocolate-frapp.livejournal.com]

thank you. I had to write this because I felt like jumping through the TV to comfort House. (Where do you get those remotes like in Pleasantville?)

[damigella-314.livejournal.com]

I read it through first, thinking "she" was Cuddy. And then... then it didn't sound like Cuddy (although a bit more like old Cuddy then the 2.0 version).
And then I figured out it was your best OFC, the well-acclaimed Self Insert! Then all the pieces of the puzzle felt right together.
And then I read the comments and felt incredibly smug :-)

This is beautiful and delicate. I wish there was someone like you in House's life. As per the polyamory, I think the one who desperately needs to be in an open relationship is Wilson. Alas, also not going to happen. Even in fanfic it's hard.

[chocolate-frapp.livejournal.com]

thank you so much!
in an earlier draft I was a lot less subtle about "her" identity and House had some dialogue but it sounded too cheesy and soap opera like so I got rid of it.

here's a link to my next fic:

http://chocolate-frapp.livejournal.com/2008/06/13/ "Iggy Pop Go the Zombies" Horror/humor, House cast in "Shaun of the Dead", essentially.