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[greghousesgf]

I have to be honest here. The main reason I wanted to go to the deYoung so much yesterday was because I love art and I wanted to cheer myself up for reasons other than hurting my shoulder in that accident. Valentine's day gets on my nerves because I've had no boyfriend for DECADES. I pretend not to let it bother me but it stinks. I want anybody reading this to know I don't hate men. I like men. I have lots of men friends. Also, I'm a feminist but I'm not whatever the female equivalent of an incel is. I do NOT think men owe me sex. NOBODY OWES ANYBODY SEX. That being said, men are not sexually or romantically attracted to me at all. There are two reasons for this and I can't change either one of them:

1. I look really bad. It is not all in my head. People who don't even know me say horrible things to me. If you look at my old passport I have a really sour expression because the photographer said something very insulting to me right before he took the picture. Also, I've seen people who look even worse than I do who are absolutely convinced they're gorgeous and I can tell you right now gaslighting yourself like that doesn't fool anyone but yourself. It just makes you seem like an egotistical idiot.
2. I'm nuts. Not in a dangerous way, I'm just on the stupid fucking autism spectrum, I wouldn't hurt anybody but I can't hold down any sort of a job and men are not attracted to women who are crazier than they are (unless they look like a model or something, and even then they often don't stick around for very long)

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[wantedonvoyage]

It's mystifying to me that people... adults... say things like that to each other. Like, who even DOES that? I'm not attracted to, like, 95% of the people I encounter but I don't feel the need to make them feel shitty about themselves. What is that satisfying?

[greghousesgf]

I don't understand it either. I would never say something like that, especially to someone I didn't even know.