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Having some Yunnan tea. L. cancelled again and I was considering going down by the lake but it occurred to me that what really had me in a bad mood was that fact that I'm sick of being alone all the time and I'd still be alone if I was at the lake but I'd see everybody else there having fun being with their friends and I wouldn't feel any better so there's no point.
Got a phone call from my sister who's not happy with my mom deciding to wear a white dress to my niece's wedding next week. I don't blame my sister, that's kind of tacky. Maybe with everybody being annoyed with my mom she'll be too distracted to give me a lot of shit about my weight.