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Something I read online last night made a whole flood of bad memories come back. Anybody who knows me well enough knows I'm no prude, but when you don't look good and you actually have a boyfriend, you're so scared of losing him that you find yourself putting up with a lot of crap that a more secure woman wouldn't tolerate. Without going into too much detail, let me say that I have at various points in my life been attracted to guys who turned out to be into weird sexual stuff. I'm not talking harmless kinks here. I can be open minded. I'm talking about VERY squicky things. Which I was nagged into participating in. (And didn't enjoy.) Or verbally abused for refusing to participate in.
If I were faced with that sort of situation again, particularly if I really loved the guy, I don't know what the fuck I'd do.